Accepting

Its valentines day and its chinese new year...

Not much of a celebration. Just hanged out with my family.

I did not drink coffee or tea today, just water. Again, I still feel the hurt. You know, I ve been close to his family for a very long time. But now, I feel that I dont know them anymore. I tried to disconnect myself to them, I want to delete them on my yahoo messenger list, but I cant. What did they do to hurt me? There is only one person who hurt me...but I feel I need to do this, because its the right thing to do...I want to delete them from my fb account...but it will be too obvious...

I can feel that they dont want to talk to me anymore..and they too shut me out. Its okay, and i think im thankful for that because I can move on. I just cant stop but to feel hurt and to cry..haha...I wanted to ask God, if I wasted my 10 yrs...but I know I gained something...I did.

I just hope the pain would just go away...but i know i have to go through series of process...oh God..the pain is just so..unexplainable...

I just did it..I deleted them...i have to do it...im sorry...