End of February

I have to take this opportunity to say sorry for not writing a blog for how many days :(

I dont know, ive been busy with a lot of things. Emotional turbulence..but im okay now..until I saw the movie "miss you like crazy" last friday night. My bessy and I went to rockwell to watched the movie. The movie was great!. Nice movie lines..but..i just cant seem to imagine someone would do that for me. Haha. I somehow relate my story to that movie. Me as John lloyd...and maricar as my first love and bea as the other guy...LOL.

Lesson of the story? No matter where you are here on earth, if you really are meant for the person, you will soon see each other. Believe that. If not, then...its not meant to be at all. Another lesson? let go of the person you love, and if he/she comes back and she/hes yours...its hard at first, but you know what? maybe that hurt is worth all the pain.....and worth all the wait...

But for how long shall i wait? thats the question. Maybe the answer is...its comforting to know that you are not waiting...but then again, im getting old! : ( you know the feeling that, your life stops...because of it? while everyone is busy with their upcoming weddings..me...its back to zero..

maybe i should not wait..maybe i just need to just go on...move forward..I AM doing that. But sometimes i just cant help to think about him....it takes time...i know...

and that damn job im waiting its not calling! argggh :(

Please Lord...

No Coffee for me today - Coffee Brewer broke down :(

Its a hot tuesday afternoon. Whew.

I guess there was a reason why my coffee brewer at home broke down. I just saw that the glass of the coffee brewer has a crack on it. :( So no coffee for today! and i feel sluggish hehehe, but its okay because its soooo hot outside....i might just drink a cold iced fruit later, or maybe water.

Do you ever believe in rumors? What if someone you trusted believed it...and they did not even confront you to clarify things if its true? How would you react? Well, i will be hurt. I just dont understand why people make up stories to make them feel better. I feel sorry for them. Why dont they just live their own perfect life and go on with their lives right?

Today i promise myself to be positive. I wish Emersons will call now...haaay


Please God...

Monday - Does Garfield really hate it? :)

Its Monday and my body is aching because of the 21k run i had yesterday. But its all worth it..

Im at work today, sipping coffee awhile ago.. I was thinking about him again. My dad asked about him, my friend chelsea asked me about him as well. But im not yet ready to tell all...that its over...(maybe) because honestly, im still hoping. How long shall i hope? For how long....

I emailed tina...and she havent replied yet. I emailed Ate angie..and still no word...I dont want to email him because I know he will never reply. I emailed him once..but no word. Shall I let go..and live my life..and tell everybody? Why do i have to explain myself to everyone...its because they care about me. But ....i dont want to make it a big circus. I just want to be happy....I still love him and i miss him.. :( so much..

I hate mondays! argh

Saturday food hopping and Sunday 21k

Im writing another blog to celebrate the fun of eating :) Its nice to try new restaurants and try new cuisine once in awhile. My family went to Manila Ocean Park and tried Makasuntra Restaurant. Its not a fine dining place, its more on a fast food place that consists of various kinds of food in asia. Mostly singapore and malaysian food. I ordered So chicken Rice. Yum! And I heart their dessert, halo halo singaporean style :) I forgot the name of the dessert, but i highly recommend it. Not too sweet, unlike our filipino style halo halo. It consists of jellys, nata de coco, and other sweets...and most of all its has its distinct taste. It tasted like..."foreign dessert", as what I told my sister. hehehe :) The ambiance of the restaurant is superb. But for me, I would rather go there at around 5pm onwards, its nice to catch the sunset :) very romantic. Unlike if you go there on the peek afternoon time, its really hot, especially now, summer is just around the corner...the temperature during peak afternoon like 12noon to 3pm is scorching hot!

I give the restaurant a thumbs up! For more eating! :)

Well the next day, is the big day for me, because its my 3rd half marathon! :)

21-10 - This date marked again another memorable run for me. One of the milestones that would create and complete the Philippines first ever Run Rio Trilogy for the year 2010.

Around 10,000 runners joined this event, just imagine the number of runners inside The Fort. I feel sorry to all the drivers out there who experienced the traffic at an early morning Sunday. ;/

This is the first leg of the of the Run Rio Trilogy and Im very surprised that the Gun Start for 21k started 15 or 10 mins early! We knew the race will start at 5:20am. I haven’t done any warm ups or stretching yet and my hydration belt and ipod are not yet in place when the race started. Talk about pressure lol. We arrived 5:09 am at the site and we saw the big screen showing the countdown for 21k...10-9-8-7-6-5-3-2-1. I asked my sis, is this for us? I was confounded by it..and yes it is! haha. A thumbs down to the organizers for not properly informing the runners :( I was a bit stressed on my first 1k, but i reminded myself to finish strong no matter what it takes. I don’t want any negative thoughts while running!

Well, a thumbs up to the organizers for putting enough water station, lots of freebies, and most of all, I can’t take my eyes away from those gorgeous sexy bods of Century Tuna's Brazilian men models who were stationed to give us water. LOL.

On my way to Heritage Park, I felt an intense pain on my right knee, so I have to walk and do some stretching. It was a challenge for me because there's a bit of uphill inside the cemetery and the sun is scorching hot. Nevertheless, I enjoyed my last km because there were a lot of "paparazzi" who took time to click their professional cameras and capture my own victory. (Thank you photovendo). I was surprised because when i saw the word "finish line" from afar, my name was called...haha, the emcee said in loud speaker, "lyn tanada, on her way to the finish line...that’s lyn tanada to the finish line, congratulations!".

Congrats to all runners out there. No matter what the distance, we are all winners in our own way. I salute you for finishing strong. :)

Thank you Century Tuna for promoting healthy lifestyle. As what Derek Ramsay says "Eat healthy, live healthy!" :)

Run Rio Trilogy
Leg 1- Finished
Leg 2 - May 2010 21k
Leg 3 - Nov 2010 32k - (so help me God)

Restaurant Experience - Thursday

Ok...Thursday night was so fun!

I got to experience to eat in two restaurants in one night! :) It was a company dinner given to all employees who managed to perfect their attendance last year. And i was one of them! :) We went o A Venue in Makati avenue, the food was great...ambiance was fab! Live karaoke is a plus. I highly recommend this place. A bit pricey but its all worth it.

Me and my friends took a cab, on our way there, we saw this new restaurant. Its a Mediterranean restaurant. We are quite curious, because its not only a restaurant but it say "Coffee shop". I rarely find a Mediterranean coffee shop here in the city. So after the dinner, me and my bessy decided to hop in and try this new coffee shop/restaurant. Im a coffee and tea addict, but my bessy does not drink any of these unless i force her hehehe. But anyway, we were welcomed. The place is so big for a coffee shop though, and the manager told us that the restaurant will have their grand opening two weeks from now. So we are actually one of the few firsts customers, hmm thats why we are given this outmost hospitality hehehe.

I ordered Halib tea, its actually a milk tea. It tasted good...not an ordinary and usual tea i drink everyday. THe waiter gave a sample dessert, its like a "kamote" dried fruit. Its sweet, but i dont like the taste that much. Me and my bessy sat down outside, coz we dont like the coldness of the non smoking area. Since there are no smokers outside, we sat down beside the window. It was very relaxing, music is relaxing although we cant understand whats playing because the song is in a different language. I just cant depict if its arabic or indian song. Oh by the way, The name of the restaurant is Albatra. :) According to the manager, we actually talked to the manager itself, he is so friendly ehhehe. We were introduced to the head of the restaurant as well, he is a Syrian national. Both of them worked in Saudi Arabia and the owner which is a Jordanian decided to put up a restaurant here in makati. Its 24 hour restaurant, I hope that it will survive knowing that its 24 hours huh. The restaurant's name Albatra was taken from a place in Jordan. Its one of the favorite touris destinations of the owner. Thats the reason why he named the place Albatra.

Next time we will be trying out other restaurants and I will write it!

So..I know you're asking what I am thinking while i was drinking my Halib Tea...hmmmm so many thoughts lingered in my mind...my work, my life and him..again! :( But in fairness to me, i did not cry anymore, maybe because I was too busy planning my life ahead..or am i just in denial again. The hurt is still there..but i try to erase it from my heart..because its not doing me good.

Do you ever have regrets? But i know that to live a happy life, there should be none. Because sometimes I do. What if i did not make that decision, what if I chose him...no...i should not think of the other him anymore, because I know I hurt him so bad. and its not fair to him for me to keep in touch with him. Its not fair for him. He doesnt deserve me.

So...I just move forward. Whatever happen will happen....

So please Help me God....whew thank you i survived this week....

21k this sunday....

Happy weekend guys.....

Thursday

Not much to say huh...all i can say today is a great day! A new day! God has been good to me..and Im greatful for that.

Positive thinking...forward thinking. Dont grude the past at the present, it will do not do good on you...

I drank 2 cups of coffee today by the way...very refreshing. Im quite hungry though hehehe.. I havent eaten my lunch yet. Outside is sooo hot! Summer is really here! Hay time flies! next is rainy season...For now, let me enjoy the ray of sunshine here at my office desk...and today is another day...yesterday is gone...

Happy Thursday!!

Wednesday - Midweek - Midlife crisis?

Its Wednesday that is.

Mid of the week, time flies huh. I woke up feeling blank today, actually I slept for 9 hours straight. And when i woke up, I felt nothing. Am i beginning to be numb? hehehe. And i cant stop singing the song "miss you like crazy" . But i like the version of nathalie cole than erik santos. No offense to erik..because some the lyrics were not included in the revised song. Nevertheless, I will watch the movie next week with my bestfriend! cant wait. Sigh...

Its ash wednesday..will go to church later at 530pm. Until now, emersons havent called me yet..and why does it taking them so long?? time is running and i really want to have a change in my life right now...February is almost over...and now what? haay...oh please God..help me find the way.

Sometimes, I feel that Im having a mid life crisis. Caught in between,nowhere to go...life is begininng to be dull, monotonous...i feel im useless...and my lovelife is zero. But i know God is with me and He will never leave me..I just want to be happy..


where is he?....